February 2012
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“Sometimes people have to cry out all the tears, to make room for a heart full of smiles.”
—Jamie, One Tree Hill (via sundaysparadise)
“Sometimes I think we waste our words and we waste our moments, and we don’t take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.”
—One Tree Hill (via unexpectedemotions)
Lent Day 3
Breakfast: Late for work so just grabbed a spoon of peanut butter
Lunch: Peanut Butter & Jelly Sandwich
Dinner: Veggie Shepherd’s Pie and Vegan Snickerdoodles
I want to be able to focus less on earthly things and replace bread with you. I want to show you that I’m serious about getting closer to you. After fighting against you for so long, I just wanted to repair all the damage. I want to make you the center of my universe. I want you to be enough for me and I hope that by fasting and humbling myself before you, that you will see I’m trying to make permanent changes in my life.
Lent Day 2
Breakfast: 1 banana and blueberries
Lunch: Potato Salad
Dinner: Veggie Burger and Rice
My journal excerpt from today:
There is still time to change the road that I am on. I don’t have to let my past dictate my future and I don’t have to continue down a road of sin because it will just add more guilt upon my shoulders. Your blood purifies me from all sin. The worst thing I’ve ever done, the darkest thought I’ve ever had are wiped away because you died for me. You died so I could live life to the fullest and I’m sorry Jesus that I still doubts that you really do forgive me for all the times I hurt you. I’m sorry that my thoughts and words and actions hurt you. Sometimes I feel that you are so far away from me and I lose sight of the fact that you are literally everywhere around me. I know I’ve made big mistakes and that I allowed myself to sin and I was fully aware of what I was doing. But I want a fresh start and I really believe I can completely throw away my old life and get a new one. God, thank you for always listening to me. Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to myself because I feel like my prayers aren’t being answered but I need to realize that I need to recognize your voice if I want to hear what you are telling me and that you answer things in your own timing. I don’t have to put on a show when I spend time in prayer with you. You already know what is in my heart, you just want me to love you enough to share it with you. I want my heart to be sincere before you and I don’t want to tell you things that I think you want to hear. I want to be completely honest and open with you.
Lent Day 1
I’m not a full time Vegan ordinarily (usually I eat Vegan once or twice a week) but I want to show God I’m humbling myself towards him by giving up foods I enjoy so I’m a full-time Vegan until Easter. I’m Pentecostal, not Catholic, and it’s my way of holding lent.
Breakfast: cereal and almond milk and a banana
Lunch: veggie hot dog in a bun and yellow rice
Snack: oatmeal raisin granola bar
Dinner: potatoes and caramelized onions…forgot I had Orchestra practice so I couldn’t make my mac & “cheese” with cauliflower but I’ll make it tomorrow after work :)
